The FINAL LAP

I don't know why i am unable to stretch myself this time......the final lap seems to be the most arduous one; the zeal, the grit is missing somewhere.

is it some sort of complacency or laziness that has unconsciously crept in....whatever it is, can i really afford to these luxuries...time is ticking, only 2 months to go, mend your ways or be prepared to face/accept the things @your hand.

magic moments look good on the wrapper of a curvy bottle but , in real life, they dont happen unless coupled with persistent, sedulous and focussed efforts......ooooooh my god , at the fag end, at this crucial juncture do i need to teach myself with such elementary things.

take the stab, my friend, put the saddle and be that old self, who you love the most.

if you fail this time, can you face yourself..........not because of the failure but of the lackadaisical attitude: you cannot flee, the only question that will haunt you throughout..........WAS I TRUE TO MYSELF??????

CAN I LIVE WITH THIS SHAME?

WILL & WILL : The Combo

have something in my mind..... a dream, an opportunity to turn situation from X....to Y

X = grim....Y = green..........but for that i need to remind myself of the cliche, there's no substitute for...........gosh!i wont use......am i kidding, till now it should have been ingrained.

have come along a long way, with lots of stakes in places..................yes you heard it true but then what the heck, its your life & you are the sole deciding authority................ooooooooh really there's still a word, sole ,that you can attribute to yourself, rest anything & everything is someone else's. moving out of the comfort zone is a daunting task but i chose to do it.........did i have any other choice ( my critics would say this) but then you are never dearth of choices, the most easy one is to choose the easiest method of compromise; i refused to do so & will continue to...............i simply adore & would love to nurture this trait of mine.

i was stuck, had sessions with myself but as always, i believed in listening to myself..........no matter what it brings in; during the doldrums, the vacuous state, i got so much to hear about the prudence of my decision from X, Y and Z..............i stated & would still, no decision , per se, is correct or incorrect, if with a bad decision things click you get to hear the bells of rejoice & with a good decision if you fail= you get to hear the groans of zombies: so its only situational.

enough of rants ; WILL WILL combo is the most deadly / decisive combo; the will to say & the will to do = there's a substantial gap & you are the one who can fill in that void.

I WILL, YES YES you heard it right..........there blows the trumpet: I WILL...